Make Lemonade tells the story of 14-year-old LaVaughn, who takes a babysitting job to earn extra cash. LaVaughn has a single mom and is also babysitting for one -- her client, Jolly, is not much older than LaVaughn, and she has two small children, each with a different deadbeat dad. Jolly is like a living example of everything LaVaughn is striving not to be -- LaVaughn WILL go to college, even if it kills her, and even though she doesn't have much, she has an engaged and formidable mother who loves her more than life and demands excellence from her. Jolly is what LaVaughn might be in a parallel universe without that mother as her life's backbone, and this never escapes LaVaughn as she tends to those precious kids, Jilly and Jeremy, and cleans Jolly's squalid apartment over and over again.
Jolly's situation is so unimaginably difficult and seems so impossible, but there it is, staring LaVaughn in the face every day. LaVaughn becomes much more than Jilly and Jeremy's babysitter -- she becomes like another parent, even like Jolly's parent -- like the responsible adult in the family, even though she's still a child herself. There is so much passion between LaVaughn and Jolly -- so much anger and resentment and sometimes even hate.
In her excitement to say it all she's starting to yell
and her hair is shaking at me
and she says, "You come here just to make me feel like a
cockroach. LaVaaawwwnnnn. You come in here with your
homework, you got your Goals--" she says it sneering.
"You got your Cay-pa-bulls--" she says it to ridicule me.
"You're Miss Perfect and my kitchen floor is too DIR-tee
for you to walk on and you tell me how cuuuute Jeremy rides the bus,
and you stole his toilet training,
you stole it from his own mother,
and you have your little Jeremy-songs
you can make up out of your head,
you're such a good little mama I could PUKE."
But sometimes, every now and then, there are laughs between LaVaughn and Jolly. And moments of understanding:
And I want to put my arms all the way around Jolly
in congratulation
and I'm happy she's so angry
and I'm proud of her ...
But I don't go hugging Jolly.
She's too angry to hug.
And that's the day Jilly chooses --
it's like she just lay on the floor and chose --
she ups and walks.
Jolly and me we're being mad together in the kitchen
and Jolly's picking up the mess of banana
that Mr. Jeremy left on a chair.
and up comes Jilly
on her two feet
looking like somebody on a boat deck,
with her surprised face
not knowing whether she's gonna fall down
or fly.
What LaVaughn is able to cope with under the circumstances while loving and teaching these kids is astounding, and you realize quickly that LaVaughn is one fiercely tough and smart cookie.
There are moments of real sadness and desperation and fear in this book that will leave you with your heart in your throat. It's written sort of in verse, which could be annoying but isn't. I underlined so many passages in this book that it almost looks like I underlined the entire thing. Because I keep everything, I went back and found my assigned reflection on the book in my graduate school papers. I wrote this in 1997: "I LOVE THIS BOOK, I really do. I feel I should cut myself off before I sit here about talk about every part I love, because I'd write myself armless." (My professor's comment: "When I chose this book, I wasn't sure how everyone would respond; I just knew I had to include it! I'm glad others had profound responses!" God bless Flo Durway, that magnificent professor who gave me this book and so many wonderful other ones!)
In short: this book cracked my heart wide open.
In book two, True Believer, which was a Printz Honor Book and won the National Freaking Book Award, LaVaughn is a little older (15) and a little wiser. (Jolly & co., so prominent in Make Lemonade, are not central figures in the sequel -- which made me really sad at first after becoming so attached to them -- but they're still present in LaVaughn's life to some degree and thankfully do make a few key appearances here.)
The sequel's story (told in the same verselike form) mainly centers on major changes in LaVaughn's life in terms of her friendships, her coursework, and her first love. There's a growing rift between LaVaughn and her two oldest and closest friends, Myrtle and Annie. While they fervently embrace church activities, LaVaughn isn't so sure how she feels about God, and it divides them in a way that deeply wounds and confuses LaVaughn.
I want to say, "Yes! I'll be in your club!"
But I don't do it,
it doesn't feel right.
I don't think that it is the job of Jesus, to keep me pure.
And I don't mean to be mean to Jesus in my thoughts
that little baby born in a manger...
I spend hours in my room
going over it all ...
going over it all again.
There was too much of it.
Besides everything else,
all those people in Hell
if Myrtle & Annie's church is right:
All those people I love.
I keep trying to think it through.
LaVaughn enrolls in more challenging classes at school and is a bit overwhelmed by the head-spinningly exciting new knowledge she's absorbing, especially in terms of grammar and the wonders and mysteries of science. Patrick is her lab partner.
If I do well in the new class like he says,
will that make me have a good life? ...
I'm thinking: Poor Myrtle & Annie.
Lucky Patrick, Lucky me.
But they have Jesus.
But I have my new class.
Insects evolved wings 350 million years ago.
Bird bones have a honeycomb structure.
We have 98% the same genes as chimps and gorillas.
The synapses of that little Jeremy,
my sweet little baby-sitting boy from last year,
his synapses are already formed. He is 3.
Science is amazing. Patrick even says it's beautiful.
One thing for sure: It's so quiet in this room.
You can hear the teacher whenever you want to.
I think they even have more watts in the bulbs.
Her childhood playmate, Jody, returns to her building and her school, and her world is rocked to the core by her powerful romantic feelings for this boy who is now a gorgeous young man who swims every day and smells like a swimming pool.
A mature person
would not pretend her pillow
was Jody and kiss it
all crying wet tears all over it
even with stuff coming out her nose.
Somebody logical would not wake
in the middle of the night
and get up and go over to the chair
where the beautiful dress was draped over
and put her face down in it
to try to smell the delicious chlorine
and cry so confused
about everything being so spoiled.
LaVaughn is so completely and utterly 15. The big things and the small things are all catastrophic in some way ... don't you remember what that felt like? When you really started understanding how tiny you were in the scope of the universe, when you felt so raw and so lost and so alive? This book is so painfully realistic in its portrayal of those crucial moments in mid-adolescence that it makes you feel everything LaVaughn feels with the same intensity -- when her heart soars, so does yours, and when she is mortified or hurt, you want to die a thousand deaths right along with her.
And when you come to the part which explains the book's title -- oh, Lordy. There will be tears. (At least there were for me.)
I am beside myself with anticipation about the arrival of book three, This Full House, which I immediately ordered, of course, from my friendly neighborhood independent bookseller. I'm trying to carefully avoid spoilers, but from what I gather, it brings Jolly back into focus, which definitely feels right, as it was LaVaughn's relationship with her and her children that started this journey. I cannot wait to see how the story turns out.